Dude,

I'm not that girl anymore.!

I had a dream about my ex last night.
And it wasn't a good feeling
to feel like I was back to where I had moved so far from.
But! I am proud to say
that even in my dream,
I made it VERY clear
that I'm not that girl I was before.
I am a new creation.
With a new, divine purpose.
I am new - inside and out.
And I know that I don't need to worry
about being THAT girl again. :)

burn.and.turn.?.

so i realized...
that i have a way of burning my relationships sometimes.
especially with guy-friends.
er should i say ex-guy-friends.

and i dont know how to reconcile with that.
cuz honestly...
these guys take up so much of my time.
and that's the reason why i found them annoying in the first place
and decided to ignore them.
because i would rather do that
than have the burden of having to be their "best friend"
and listen to every problem that they have.
and try to come up with ways to get past
walls they have built up themselves,
against other people,
and argue with them for hours on end
about how our viewpoints differ...
cuz these are the kinds of guys who keep trying to consult me--
guys i don't necessarily click with.
but.... lately...
hearing messages like:
the gospel is for everyone,
love your enemies,
humility = sacrificing my rights so that others can get theirs....
im sensing like.
something needs to change.
all those bridges that ive burned
need to be built up again.

but what do you do
when you don't even WANT to be friends again?
okay, i know the answer to that.
you can't always love people you LIKE.
but i mean...
is there ever a limit to sacrifice??
if being their friend means staying up late talking their issues out
and possibly failing a class....
are you supposed to sacrifice those grades??

please let me know,
dahil hindi ko alam!