and I don't know what to do about it.
I've never felt so passionate and desperate
about something of this world before.
And it's not that I am in love.
Okay, maybe I am.
But it's not what you imagine.
I think...
the best way to put it is.
I am in love with those people.
Who are those people?
Those people who are suffering.
Those people who have had wrongs
done against them.
Those people who have no voice or
are in no position to speak for themselves.
I feel for them.
My heart breaks for them.
I don't pity them.
I am moved.
And I want to move. I want to act.
I want to do something about this.
I'm so frustrated that I can't.
What do I need to become to help them?
to bring them justice?
to bring them hope?
I don't want to be God.
And I know I can't fix every injustice
or horrible act that occurs in this world.
But I want to do SOMETHING.
are in no position to speak for themselves.
I feel for them.
My heart breaks for them.
I don't pity them.
I am moved.
And I want to move. I want to act.
I want to do something about this.
I'm so frustrated that I can't.
What do I need to become to help them?
to bring them justice?
to bring them hope?
I don't want to be God.
And I know I can't fix every injustice
or horrible act that occurs in this world.
But I want to do SOMETHING.
Everything I'm learning about
in my international human rights law class
is making me think HOW BROKEN we are.
as a people.
It's just SO sad how cruel and unjust people can act.
And you would think that the law would fix this.
But there are SO many flaws to the structure
that is supposed to bring justice and truth.
It all seems so -hope. minus hope. hopeless.
But I know there's still got to be hope.
Because everything of God is GOOD.
And God is still God of this world...
Just to give you an idea about hope...
Even though I feel hopeless at the moment.
(because I'm looking at the world and not God)
I know God is still present here.
And there is still hope.
I see it.
For instance,
there was a genocide in Cambodia in the 70s.
If you don't know about it, I could tell you the whole story later.
But it was horrible.
It lasted 4 years. and 2 million people were killed.
And the people responsible for the mass murders
are just NOW being put on trial.
And in a court of law,
genocide is extremely hard to prove.
I can explain that later, too.
All of the 5 on trial deny that a genocide ever happened.
Except one.
And this guy, the reason why he admits everything
is because he converted to Christianity a few years back.
His testimony can be the ONE thing
that brings all 5 people punishment for their wrongs.
And the millions of Cambodian victims of the genocide
a sense of justice for their sufferings.
God is still God.
And God is still good.
Just to give you an idea about hope...
Even though I feel hopeless at the moment.
(because I'm looking at the world and not God)
I know God is still present here.
And there is still hope.
I see it.
For instance,
there was a genocide in Cambodia in the 70s.
If you don't know about it, I could tell you the whole story later.
But it was horrible.
It lasted 4 years. and 2 million people were killed.
And the people responsible for the mass murders
are just NOW being put on trial.
And in a court of law,
genocide is extremely hard to prove.
I can explain that later, too.
All of the 5 on trial deny that a genocide ever happened.
Except one.
And this guy, the reason why he admits everything
is because he converted to Christianity a few years back.
His testimony can be the ONE thing
that brings all 5 people punishment for their wrongs.
And the millions of Cambodian victims of the genocide
a sense of justice for their sufferings.
God is still God.
And God is still good.
This makes my heart break, but you're right. There IS hope. In God.
ReplyDeletea good friend of mine has parents that are both survivors of the Cambodia genocide.
ReplyDeleteshe likes to watch The Killing Fields with her father, who tells her that movie is G-rated compared to the real thing
anyway Aileen i'm glad i found your blog. you have a lot of heart and i believe you can make change in this world when you find how to tap the power inside you. i also know of some spaces that can help you find that power... let's talk!
-jeremy